Another failed day

When I started writing this blog I was always day ahead. So I wrote of what I have done day before but yesterday I apparently failed so hard that I even missed blog entry. So from today on I'm writing from present, so what I plan what I accomplished and other things. But back to my failures.

How can I change myself? I think it's about the mindset. I need to change how I see myself. I need to start thinking like I'm what I want to be. I know it's easy to say but will I be able to do it? Honestly, I have no idea but I have to get out of the hole I'm digging for myself or I will die in it dead broke. And being broke is killing my mind, I'm going crazy because of it and using a lot of coping mechanisms.

It's not that I want a lot of money, but I want to do lots of stuff and help my family to not to worry about money. But if I keep living like I was until now nothing will change.